urrrgh
I hesitate to self-diagnose, but this feels just like the anaemia I had a few years ago. I'm lethargic, my temperature fluctuates from intense flashes of heat in my torso to the more common state of freezing fingers and toes, my limbs are numb and tingly and I'm having a hard time concentrating. At times I even have a hard time coordinating, not bumping into things and last night I had to concentrate so my speech wouldn't sound slurred. The fatigue is there as well. But the main problem is the heaviness in my head.

I remember how it felt to always feel that heaviness. And what happens when it falls down... it is like a weight that is balanced precariously in my brain, but could fall at any moment. When it falls, it's like someone cuts my strings - I fall to the ground like a lifeless puppet, my thoughts still mine but unable to affect my body.

For a control freak like me, that is really fucking scary, k?

I've already made a doctor's appointment to determine what's going on. Just have to wait 'til Friday...